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Friday, September 23, 2011

Long lost greetings

Hello, a warm greets from office.
I have been missing for very long time I guess. I nearly forget and forgone my precious blog.
I myself wonder why I do not update my blog frequently
Maybe because I dont have any nice topic to share, I ran out of idea , out of topic and out of my life. I dont have time :(
Anyone can give me some idea please? Gonna appreciate it.
Oh ya, I've been doing my intern lately. This is one of the point why I dont update my blog frequently
After work, feeling damn exhausted. I bath, eat, watch drama and sleep. Beautiful isn't it my sequence of life?
I have to adapt this life as this sequence gonna be my daily life soon. I completed my college course and finally I can take a deep breath. I do not need to sit for exam and study. Yay, it is a happy news for me I supposed.


Well, even after two years, I still miss him and care for him. I don't know what is the exact reason I have been falling for him after so long. I been questioning myself eversince we're not together. The only reason I could provide is I really love him. It is so so hard to forget him, forget everything about us. It might only took us short time to be together as one but I will cherish every moment and path we went through.How could I forget the first time we met during my birthday, you were there to fetch me after class. Remember? Everything that we did I scribble down in my little diary, every words you texted me eversince we known each other, I captured down too in my diary. You tell me how do I forget you? It may be impossible for us to be together previously, now or future but I hope one day we will get the true blessing for who ever do not accept us as one. I often tell you to give me some time to forget you but I cant do that, I do not have the heart to letting you go in my heart and mind. And you making me hate you in the hope I will find another guy. Not untill I let go of you. We cant do anything except for being friends, this is what we are going through and practicing now. I feel suffered and pain coz everytime I close my eyes to sleep, I thought of you, thought of you holding my hand and tell me I am afraid that you be lost or fall like the ever first time you grab my hand on the escalator. However, even if we are not together no matter how hard we tried and wait, I wish you hapiness in your life, hope you can find your true love and never to see your heart break. I never wanna see you hurt and sad, I just want to see you always happy with your life even without me. iloveyouendlessly.


As long as you're happy, I am happy too regardless of our relationship
Like most generous people quote " Doesn't need to be with the person you like if wants to be happy"
Somehow I agree to the quote but I am not ready to let him go
I wanted him to be mine so much, perhaps a future with him.
I pray for us to be together one day without any objections.
I hope you feel the same way too.


Sunday, July 10, 2011

The end of 3 years hardship

Her college life ended last year
She won't have the headache of doing assignment, meeting the lecturer she dont like and attend classes like usual.
She is free with her working life now, not to mention it is tiring to go to work
Waking up early in the morning, head to office.
Isn't this what we all want after graduate
Get work and earn more money to live wonderful life lol
Here where she is now. Having the same dream like others. Looking forward to job with no regrets..

Last Sunday was her convocation, family members attended one of her biggest day in life
Sorry for postponing this post beloved sis and congratulations to you..
You make it through all the hardship, I am proud of you!
Do not forget me when you succeeded ;)
I will update the rest of convo pictures soon...


Update soon..have a nice day everyone ;)

Sent from my iPhone

Thursday, June 23, 2011

I don't really care anymore, go away !

I was reluctant when you spill out the statement
How could you tell me that
And I personally think you don't have the right to tell me that
You should remind yourself what to dos and donts
If you are just next to me now, i will punch you for real
I dont really want to know all that
After years gone by, i think i changed
Not for the sake of you but for my ownself and my loved ones
You think you are perfect enough?
Stand infront of the big mirror and you could tell your weak side
You wouldn't know how glad am I now for putting you off from my life
Or else I will be regreting now
Just live the way you use to be pathetic people
I just sit here and see how far you can go with your life and perceptions 

Sent from my iPhone 

Tuesday, June 07, 2011

Making my way up

Hello everyone
Been away for weeks
Any changes?
Nope, I'm still a loner
I have been in upset mood ever since the world doesn't recognize me anymore
The people around me do not understand the only me
I do not know what this world means to me now
I couldn't speak to anyone I know
Everyone seems like a stranger to me
They look at me differently, way too different now
I lost my way, strength and life, every second I feel like tearing apart 
I am sad, why they are not noticing?
It has been too obvious we are moving apart now
The world doesn't seem so green to me anymore, life out of rainbow patch
I just don't know why, I feel unhappy
I may look strong outside but I am not as strong as what people think
My heart hurts, my ears hurt, I might just fall down at once
But a smile on my face is a must to cover my sadness
It just another crap to speak out






Maybe the world is not lying to me
This is life, this is reality
Whenever you need me, I will be there
What happen when I need you, You won't be there
It makes me hate people so much, dramatic one to be exact
Whatever, I live on my own life
Fucked-up if you hate me     

Thursday, May 19, 2011

Exhausted on the existing day


Just another ordinary day at campus
What so good to be in campus studying for late classes
Nothing good to be boost off
I been lacking of sleep during the beginning of the semster
   ?Wonder why
Of course it is not because of hardworking and study stuff
I'd been waking up very early these day
 I want to sleep more more and just more than weekends
I dont think I own a choice
My eyebag is going to pop out soon like panda :p
This is just another minor piece of mine life
 There will be more coming up next, I know
Never ending pathetic life


What goes on, just let it be
Hang on for the bad day and move on to another wonderful day ahead
It is always simple to said than done


Another typing session just from college library while waiting for prince class to end
Hope the other day arrived in few minutes time from now:(








Wednesday, May 04, 2011

Put a full stop on holidays as real life is approaching for another time

Holidays.
One week gone with relieve and I should mention stiffness here.
The main reason is because I done nothing, nothing exciting or enjoyable, just loafing at home
It happens every time. Everyday. Results released yesterday, mere satisfaction. I could have done better.
I spend my hols unproductively, brain is lacking of knowledge and oxygen at the same time
I only walk out to open the gate and dry clothes.Lolz.Poor thing. Most of the time is inside the house.
Holiday had always been boring to me, I do not know where and who should I ask for companion
And I realized I have been worrying over minor matters too much where it doesn't even bother actually
Giving me hard time to make wise decision as well as become a well human being.I am so dull.
And it is so so so tough to overcome emotion and obstacles in order for perfection. I've been trying my level best to behave in superior manner.
But I can't pretend nothing happened in the past and get along with you all the way. Nothing gonna changed the past, your stupidity attitudes. We have enough of it. Let's just say we live on our own life without interrupt one's path.
Full stop!

After all the buzzing speak up.There's something I would like to share here. The other day, I am searching for Big Bang MV's. Simply because I wanna download the MV's and keep it in my laptop ;D
While I am searching, there this video with two guys kissing and it actually attracts my curiosity to watch. I just wanna know what is it, tempting tho ;P
Yeah, I did click the link and watched. Since the video contain some obscene action, I wouldn't attach the link here where underage kids are not allowed to watch, oops!
(Do ask me the link if your wanna have a glimpse either curiosity level is high)
I am at the right age to watch this kind of video, do not say I am not suitable to watch this or hamsap please
Okay.I should at least give some clue right. In fact, it is a love stories between guy couples.
I wouldn't say it is gay love because the story flow doesn't seems like that to me.
watching this series, I do realized it's not only girl-boy love appear to be strong but guy couples could actually protect and love the same way as the normal girl-boy relationship. I am impress by how the stories tell us about their passion and love for each other is somewhat similar to the reality one. Whereas, the most challenging part is both main lead can suits their self in the character and emotion. It is impossible to hold on laughter and tears at some scenes,really. I personally like this series very very much, what ya think?




The Takumi Kun series, is in Japanese. (you can watch it with sub)
It looks somewhat sweet right? :P
Cast by Hamao Kyousuke(left) and Daisuke Watanabe(right) (I only remember both of this names)
Hamao is so darn cute, I like. I guess everyone likes him.
Short sight: Hamao is known by Takumi in the drama and he is the girl where Daisuke is the boy, given the name as Gii. They are the cute couple where love,passion, sacrifice,understanding,depressed,hurt and protect took place in thier relationship. Both well acted as it is not easy to do so at some scenes. Takumi really looks like a girl to me and his cute voice calling out Gii name makes me melt every time I watched. The part where Gii run all the way to look for Takumi is so touching that I shed some tears. I just super duper love this series(infinity like) and I hope it won't end. What ya waiting for, watch this ;)

Aisheteru Hamao ♥♥♥♥♥!




A quick peek of the lovely series




Takumi and Gii forever, Takumi Kun is love ♥♥♥♥♥♥


Girls just wanna have fun. I don't wanna waste so much of my youth time doing nothing. I want to have fun!







Thursday, April 28, 2011

҉ ĥƴƀŗȉƌ ƦɜɭɋȚȋȱɳșɧ!ƥ ҉҉

The society and the world ain't the same like before. The old world that folks used to live left far away behind leaving sweet and bitter memories
And where high obsession and curiosity overwhelmed one personality at the present
Public personality tend to render and changed in so call modernized globe,and so was love and relationship





It is common now to have society with dissimilar religion holding hand or walking together as a pair either at mall, college or just anywhere. Is it a true love or fad? I believed everyone will questioning the same matter  upon this type of relationship such as how do they fall in love or can they communicate well with different language. Fyi, we do have other alternative way like utilizing international language to communicate, I mean everyone will at least have the basic English to speak.





Sigh. However, there are still number of people that have different opinion regarding this. They wouldn't be blame to have their own thoughts. This group of people do not accept hybrid relationship even during this current era where there are no differentiation between black and white as the world structure have been modernized years back then. I mean who really care what are you made of. Chocolate, milk or expresso? Everyone is the same which is human but only carries different culture ahead us. Culture is important,  I know, but there always some reason to go beyond this culture. I just don't get what these people think. Perhaps, I won't understand and get along well. Let's hope for changes people, changes in their mindset. Pray (=





Saw? Awesome? I don't see the point to differentiate ourselves with others. Because we all are the same,
HUMAN. "Our colour may be differ, but somehow we do look alike". Agree? Always think on behalf of others before we act. In fact, what so great about differentiating about colours. Gonna win billion or million? Think wisely!




I do not know about you
But I am happy with my colour, I am not hesitating
The question you frequently ask 'why'
I may not be giving you an accurate answer 
Because I'm not sure about it, I am not given a choice to choose
Just be grateful for who you are, God Bless with







   

Monday, April 25, 2011

It's over and done


Exam overrr!!
Finally, I owned  my 1 week sem break starting from today
It's a good thing as I am away from notes and books
Past few weeks been crazy writing and memorizing over the notes
Like every minute holding the notes (Nerdy herh?)
I am not, I guess I hate the feeling of failing seriously
But I ain't doing my best for this sem finals
Pheww..I am so so dead 
What am I gonna do with the grades? 
Anyway, it is holiday for me now
No point thinking till the result out
Happy Holiday college mates :)



I wanna work but I lazy to find one 
1 week work is hard to find now
Help me? 
Till the next day, I shall update about myself
Take care guys, 


Before I leave, this is one love piece of senti-mental song
One of my current favourite song 








What is past and done
Leave it and move on
This is life, we cant complain much
I dont' have the feeling for longing to long
I dont' wanna wait any longer 
I guess it's the time to say goodbye again!
I'm not sure I can make it this time round,  pray hard I can
    






Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Dream will never come true

It is true that dreams are hardly come true?  
In my opinion
Very rare or I should say once in a blue moon
Perhaps never!
Maybe we should stop dreaming and live on
Human do realize reality is any better than fantasy thinking
One of my dream just crash and burn yesterday
I feel very very sad
Why when I always have the hope, it will disappear the other day
:((


I like this quote so much from Tupac Shakur

-“Reality is wrong. Dreams are for real"-


I really like this scene from No Strings Attached movie

'Ashton Kutcher is so so so caring'. So so swweeet. I make you a period mix :P
I wish I have caring one too. Every girl dream guy :)




No point for regretting
No point for hoping
The fate is justified
Don't look back, keep going.






 


Sunday, March 06, 2011

Works load with limited time

I can't breathe!
I can't breathe!
I can breathe no more
I can breathe no more
I can sleep no more
Busy busy busy but still loging to other activities
Been exclusively busy with college work
* Assignments (Left 1 more)
* Presentation preparation (This stress me out the most!)
* Individual project (Driving me crazy, sigh )

Personally, final year ain't easy to go through without putting much effort
Many tasks need to be done in time (Couple of weeks to go)
Important to be alert and not taking things for granted (I do not pay attention to this)
Handling works alone make me feel like going into another stage (maturity stage)
Kind of rushing a proposal in an organization =p

Things ain't flowing smoothly under my control
Work mess up every single time
I am not sure where do I start and how should I complete a perfect one
I know 'Not everyone is perfect" concept is there to comfort me
Nothing to expect more than perfect
Average is pretty satisfying



This scenery looks pretty calm to me
I wish I could sit on the rock and relax =)




*Finger cross tightly every single time for me and my closed one to succeed*
*Reality life isnt that easy to live compare to a dream*
*Need to be patient to be succeed*

Be nice to people on your way up because you'll need them on your way down.Wilson Mizner

 



Friday, February 25, 2011

Another ordinary day with the loved one ♥

We wanna go for walk, eat chicken rice ball and..and simply spent time together:)
Therefore, Malacca is the place we break through last Wednesday (15/2/11)
If you ask me how was it?
In my opinion, it was somehow rather fun to be at other place and the weather is hell hot..phew~
But no worries, my sis got me a beautiful red hat (thank you sis)
So that how it goes
Malacca to PD
Its been many years we didnt spent time together like this, aren't we?
Eversince we grew up from a toddler untill now
Ask us are we happy? I guess everyone can know the answer
Live like theres no regret
I always care and heart my loved one
oneheartwealwaysbe



 Pictures pictures everywhere xD

























I am feeling lost lately
Merely the feeling of tired and pressure
I dont wanna be moody like usual
I just wanna be happy!

You dont appreciate, you can leave
Nobody can force you to be honest
Do not lie, I dislike it the most
Just disappear, I dont want to see you
Im lost and hurt, you wouldnt know and care about me
Then why still longing for? Only you know the reason












Saturday, February 12, 2011

CNY`11 Dayout

Gong Hei Fatt Choi
(Ang Bao Na Lai)
I know its too late to wish my dear friends here
But who cares? Its only Chor-8 today =p
So hows everyone CNY celebration?
I hope everyone have fun during lunar year
I had an awesome time  :)
Like usual, vegetarian on the first day like every year
Scrumptious serving from my aunt, never get boring ;D
Well, I didnt took much photos of food, relatives or outift for that day
Just a simple picture will do
Oh yea head to LM for movie after receiving ang bao from aunties and uncles
A simple reunion among us is more than everything in this world
The value is priceless and money cant buy happiness I shall speak
Looking how happily they gather and chat makes me feel satisfy and excited
Meeting cousins I seldom meet is beyond my expectation, I'm over-joyed actually
There is when I wish every day is a chinese new year season
Then everybody will be happy without worries
Once again, happy chinese new year everybody







 Siblings @ LiveLikeHowWeAreBefore <3






I know my limit, I'm very sure about this
Do not worry
I strongly agree prevention is better than cure
Prevention is better than getting hurt
Live it to faith, GBU!