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Friday, September 23, 2011

Long lost greetings

Hello, a warm greets from office.
I have been missing for very long time I guess. I nearly forget and forgone my precious blog.
I myself wonder why I do not update my blog frequently
Maybe because I dont have any nice topic to share, I ran out of idea , out of topic and out of my life. I dont have time :(
Anyone can give me some idea please? Gonna appreciate it.
Oh ya, I've been doing my intern lately. This is one of the point why I dont update my blog frequently
After work, feeling damn exhausted. I bath, eat, watch drama and sleep. Beautiful isn't it my sequence of life?
I have to adapt this life as this sequence gonna be my daily life soon. I completed my college course and finally I can take a deep breath. I do not need to sit for exam and study. Yay, it is a happy news for me I supposed.


Well, even after two years, I still miss him and care for him. I don't know what is the exact reason I have been falling for him after so long. I been questioning myself eversince we're not together. The only reason I could provide is I really love him. It is so so hard to forget him, forget everything about us. It might only took us short time to be together as one but I will cherish every moment and path we went through.How could I forget the first time we met during my birthday, you were there to fetch me after class. Remember? Everything that we did I scribble down in my little diary, every words you texted me eversince we known each other, I captured down too in my diary. You tell me how do I forget you? It may be impossible for us to be together previously, now or future but I hope one day we will get the true blessing for who ever do not accept us as one. I often tell you to give me some time to forget you but I cant do that, I do not have the heart to letting you go in my heart and mind. And you making me hate you in the hope I will find another guy. Not untill I let go of you. We cant do anything except for being friends, this is what we are going through and practicing now. I feel suffered and pain coz everytime I close my eyes to sleep, I thought of you, thought of you holding my hand and tell me I am afraid that you be lost or fall like the ever first time you grab my hand on the escalator. However, even if we are not together no matter how hard we tried and wait, I wish you hapiness in your life, hope you can find your true love and never to see your heart break. I never wanna see you hurt and sad, I just want to see you always happy with your life even without me. iloveyouendlessly.


As long as you're happy, I am happy too regardless of our relationship
Like most generous people quote " Doesn't need to be with the person you like if wants to be happy"
Somehow I agree to the quote but I am not ready to let him go
I wanted him to be mine so much, perhaps a future with him.
I pray for us to be together one day without any objections.
I hope you feel the same way too.